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2007-08-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

Hello Im Back..

2007-04-09T14:05:00.000-07:00

glad to have met him cos at the end of the day, it's still the best to have ur love being appreciated.. quoted from qiuling when i asked her abt her new bf which she just met him for a short while.

Are the the things still the same way as it is before?

2006-09-24T10:57:00.000-07:00

hmmm... not to mention anything.. i seriously sense someting strange already... maybe its a revenge or someting for my acts but im already sry for it.. Alot of things from u could make me think that something funny is really going on.. But im not going to ask whats happening.. ur daily attitude doesnt show interests anymore.. hmmm maybe the gap is really too big already.. i guess i make some preparation in case someting happen.. my weak heart cannot take anymore downs.. Pls end my torment.. Or assure me..

The fighting spirit within me is calling out...

2006-09-17T15:01:00.000-07:00

maybe i have been sucha loser for quite a long time that me myself cant take it anymore... recently when the irritating feeling comes and haunt me, theres like this strong feeling inside me fighting it back.. i wanted to give up but it dont let me.. well for once, i need to show everyone what im capable of... i shall not surrender to the given circumstances so easily... studies?friends?family?money?girlfren? i make them right.. looking around myself, i have noticed since right after secondary sch, everyone's been changing quite alot.. just that whether they change for the better or change for the worst.. well im in no position to say that but honestly i do propose an idea to whoever of u who are reading this post... 1. Ask yourself do u still regconize urself.
2. How much of ur life have changed. 3. Touch your heart and ask urself.. Are u really feeling good by behaving in this way?

Thats what i proposed.. Theres no answer to it.. The only answer lies within urself... No doubt that everyone changes.. Let me re-emphasize abt it again.. Everyone changes just that whether u change for the better or for the worst... Talking about changing.. Me myself have changed quite alot too.. No doubt i used to be a person who used to accomplish things by taking shortcuts.. Shortcuts that was by making other people suffer or underhand methods.. i know that i cant escape from what i did b4 but one thing i am sure about it.. im really trying to change and get the regconition from other people.. theres no way i can undo my mistakes but pls forgive me for what i did..

Although times are hard now regardless of whatever scenario im living in.. i will nt submit to it..
Friends-- I will do what i can to maintain it as long as possible. The rest is up to u all
Family-- Im old enough to return the happiness that u all gave me when im a child
Girlfriend-- I am sorry for my selfish attitude. I do hope u could give me one more chance to restart everything again.
Everyone-- Pls give me the encouragement that i need to continue my path.. Sometimes, i really feel terrible.

From now on.. No shortcuts, no giving up. I will use my own hardwork to qualifed in this world.

Trust me and be rest assured

Can anyone listen to me and console me?

2006-09-15T11:44:00.000-07:00

I admit that for this sem i didnt study at all and all i can do now is blame myself... im vexed but i dont know what im vexed about.. theres too much things on my mind.. friends, girlfriend, studies,future and my studying attitude... why is everyting happening to me all at the same time.. i may sound fine but everyday inside me.. i feeling v miserable.. im nt a superman nor a wonderman. im just a person with flesh n blood and most importantly.. i have emotions.. theres just too many problems that my heart is facing right now.. i tried to speak out how i feel but no one ever really pay attention to what im saying and forget abt it.. i know that i was the one who triggered all these problems but seriously.. can i just be forgiven and being cared?

I write my own stories
I listen to my own problem
I console myself
I encourage myself
I wipe my own tears

in the end... who cared for me?

The feeling's back again..

2006-09-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

its been like 18 years already.. i kept on telling myself that i'll work hard.. luck is not always on my side. this 18 years tat i've been through.. did i once ever put in effort in e things i did... maybe i did but im am certain that isnt the maximum of my capabilities... and now.. im facing the ultimate scenario of getting kicked out by my sch.. and i have only 1 and a 1/2 week to fight for my future.. i know i will study but how much effort would i put in? IM SO STRESSED.. and there isnt raelly anyone who's our there to care for me.. im always bearing things inside of me..

The day i almost died

2006-04-11T07:29:00.000-07:00

well 2dae spent the day with my darling coming to my house having some pimple session.. HaHa.. really very grateful=).. well after that guess we couldnt go anyelse where too so went to 201 and had dinner.. Then suddenly my stomach hurt like hell and i started to have cold pespiration... My vision was blurred and my hearing is at the most minimum capability.. Wanted to went toliet but all the cubicles was occupied and i was lyk wondering how long i can still live..
I was about to collapse and faint but i figured out that i couldnt be sucha sissy to collapse in a kopitiam.. KOPITIAM?!?! yea.. its kopitiam and i don want to be crowded by aunties and uncles after i collapse so i held on.. and then decided to stood up and went to east cc... AHHHH... finally found a cubicle.. but ... i dont have the feeling of shitting.. Lol... then i sit on the toliet bowl and fell asleep for awhile.. waahaha.. donno y.. i woke up very soon and my stomach pain have subsided.. well but my dizzyness is still there so went to buy all sorts of food trying to replenish my blood.. haha.. well i guess i can treat that as a close shave with death.. haha.. Im really grateful that my darling is there.. I wouldnt be able to walk so far if its w/o her company.. Thanks.. Once again.. I love u=)

Meanings.

2006-02-18T10:39:00.000-08:00

Be it anyone. It just sucks when an individual just tries to make out a sentence by themselve and judge people by it. By doing so, did them ever think of themselve? Nah i dont think so. Never ever judge people before people judge on you. You are just countering people because you dont like the way u are treated with. SO JUST CHANGE IT. Just a tiny misfortune u had before, you could actually think u got the right to mistreat the others? I may not be someone to talk about these things but im at least trying to change myself. Y do i change u say? Cause i want the world to regconize me. You may hate the human but wy are u a human urself. Hate urself then. Its just so sad when i witness people hurting themselve and making a fool out of themselve eventually. It just cant be helped.

Busy month...

2005-12-13T04:18:00.000-08:00

ahhh... this whole month seems that everyone of us is very busy... didnt get to see bernie lex lynn and yan for quite some time.. lol... hey if any1 of u guys reading tis ah... remember that we have already booked each other for the christmas night and new year so pls pls make urself free on tat day... and guess wad... 2dae i saw bernie at mushroom dere.. lol quite touched sia since so long nv see him le.. but one ting for sure.. hes getting fitter n fitter and im getting cuter n cuter =) so left lex lynn n yan i didnt see yet... but i noe lynn wont change her hairstyle de and dat applies very much the same to yan since her hairstyle cant be changed.. lex... wonder if he jio teo tat gal liao buai.. everytym go out keep kp to me abt tat particular gal he's bio-ing but he nv even tk action loh... only noe e name nia.. gam lan la.. LOL... been participating in quite alot of tings nowadays.. i got myself a job which is located at sentosa hotel.. wahahaha... quite high class eh.. but i wonder whats its lyk over dere... once i gt money.. i really need to pay off my coconut ahlong debt in order to redeem my pure soul back... keke.. moreover, i signed up for the directors cup which is the basketball event... need to seriously train myself right after the term tests ends... so dat i can acheive my dream of saying no to the coach when he ask me to join the school team... WAHAHA... i hope i can do it and i will do it.. Last friday, first tym to a pub.. woot.. its nth much lyk drinking in a kopitiam la... the only diff is tat its got aircon and theres free peanuts to eat loh.. keke... someday i trit berd n lex to there ba since we have alot to catch up.. been slacking for the whole month n 2dae is e day i commence operation save-ahpeng-from-failing-term-test studying... need to really focus and make sure myself pass e damn test... keke...

i wonder hows everyone have been and i do hope our friendship never fades by a tiny single bit yet... we are still brothers and sisters...

!!!!

2005-12-04T01:49:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Can someone pls save me??

2005-11-21T05:41:00.000-08:00

wah kao tis tym die le.. there's tis gal on friendster added me into her frenlist and she private msg me to ask me to msg to her phone. Since lyk abit friendly to be frenz den i msg lo... Didnt expected tat right after i msg.. She called me!! omg... nvm.. chat... but her voice ah.. i bth.. juz lyk speaking to ahdu.. only bernie noes how her voice is... den this 3 days.. she keep on calling me!!! wth

The world is so beautiful....

2005-11-19T10:27:00.000-08:00

Wah.. 2dae went to bishan with lex berd n lynn lo... WOOT... i been living for 17 years and i felt that it is this moment that makes me feel that living is so so worth it cuz there is so many many chiobu to see... WAHAHA... cant take my eyes off everyone lo... look there look here look until my neck pain... Life is so beautiful when u go to bishan... muahaha... all right la stop crapping with chiobu tingy liao.. after tt we went to watch e campus superstar lo.. keke... e gal contestants all sing till not bad, quite nice... but for e boys ah... ohhh nooo noo noooo... gt one singing nt special one.. but he in! omg... juz right after im happy seeing so many mei mei... im so fed up.. haha... however still gt some boys nt bad aso.. keke.. stood there for almost 1/2 an hour lo den decided to go e food court there makan but i eat only lo... e chicken spaghettit so so nice lo... wahaha.. after tt lynn proposed e idea of drinking lo den berd pointed out to swensen... lol.. so we went in lo...
hmmm looking at e menu.... we're fascinated by e dishes lo so decided to EAT... wahaha... berd n lynn ordered baked rice whereby me n lex ordered crayfish pasta(add noodle.. eat until die) and chicken with pepper lo.. muahaha.. eat for dunno hw long.. finally finish e whole dish... den look at menu again... ICE CREAM.. wahaha if nt den come swensen for wad sia... so decided to bring some sweetness to our mouth lo.. so we order and here come this little gal call peiqi.. lol so cuteee... woot she's looking at me smiling... muahaha... den stupid berd lynn lex keep on saying rubbish make till so paiseh.. happy moments go by v fast... we went out and shopping den back to Tam.... reach there den discuss abt whether wanna go sento swimming lo.. so berd tried calling samy and i call justin n mac aso... lol.. but in e end aso useless la.. samy donno y don wan to go.. keke.. so decided nt to tink abt it first den go pavi train pool lo... tinking of pool... jasmine still cant defeat me... go train 10 yrs ba.... after pool.. lex e cute cute went back home to edit donno wad map la... den me berd lynn went to mac to discuss abt e swimming plan lo... decided nt to go to sento since its abit tiring to travel back n forth la.. so decided to swim at safra first den go kbox k songs la... FOR OUR JUEDUI SUPERSTAR DREAM IN 2006... pls vote for us!!! wahaha.. provided if we can go in la.. keke...

WTH am i doing nowadays

2005-11-17T10:06:00.000-08:00

Its been 2 weeks since sch reopen and seriously enough.. i've already sian 1/2 to all e lessons.. as a result i skip almost all lecture.. even if i go.. i didnt listen.. i cant let this keep on going on.. guess frm nxt week onwards i'll prepare all my lecture notes and pay attention so as to make this semester smooth sailing for me.. talking abt 2dae.. went to pool with wee n tommy they all.. lol quite fun.. yanda lost to me again and i no need to pay for e table.. so song.. wahaha... after pool we went to top floor to DOTA... woot so shiok.. starting i use silencer but sian aso la.. 4v3 den yanda nt so good in dota lo so kena own.. so sian... den after tat... now my team is 4v3 liao.. i use sand king... woot starting kena own by butcher but late game i own him... wahaha... dota till 7+ den went home.. tinking of it now.. sat still have to go out and see campus superstar.. haha.. wonder if can witness any strange occurance anot lo since nowadays youngster are so so mad.. i've reach the point of my life where i dont have any worries and its lyk i dont have a brain to tink.. so shiok but sad la.. everyday time pass by so quickly and my parents are getting older day by day... i cant keep my usual ignorance unattended also le.. need to earn some cash to trit them go out eat so dat i can keep tat as part of my beautiful memories....
And now all my sec sch buddies are all busy with work, new frens and studies.. guess tat we'll just have to wait for christmas to arrive to havoc again... Lol..
I hope tat i can rest but if i were to rest... Everything will fall cuz all my frenz are so nt automatic...

...

2005-10-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

only slept for 4 awful hours den have to go out meet sec sch buddies to celebrate lynn's birthday... went to seoul garden and eat but i nv eat much which is v unusual of me... dunno y.. e more i eat e more i want to zzzz.. tink becoz of lack of sleep ba.. and e white rice there so yummy man... im a guy who cant survive w/o white rice... lol... eat until half.. berd me lex spot teo a babe.... not bad not bad... gt e korean look sia.. and wads most important is tat she handles seoul garden ice cream!!! how sweet... lol.. right after tat.. we decided to go town through bus 65... however e experience wasn't good due to e stupid bus conducter.. need to pay xtra damn fcuking 140 for e busride.. damn him.. and furthermore.. we alighted at e wrong stop but nt bad la.. cuz gave us e opportunity to shop at great world city... lol so many foreigners at there and most importantly.. woot mei mei alot..lol... times up for e shutter bus service... we rush over there den saw another ang mor mei mei inside e bus.. im so lucky sia.. lol... we reached tangz de berd n lex went to bombing as usual... den me yan lynn went to shop lo.. so pathetic sia tangs.. but coincidentally saw my primary sch fren.. bring me back memories.. lol... so went to shop at heerens and kesiao gt free coka cola frm e promoter... lol thou the taste of lime coke sux but bo bian la.. im a typical gian peng guy.. lol.. back to tam den chiong to kbox and sing sing sing... throat once again sore but we have fun la... now all of us are one year older already... which mean e time of playing eternally have been reduced by one year.... but nevertheless... we'll shall be behind each others back forever la... lol.. no matter who die first =x

Discovery...

2005-09-29T13:52:00.000-07:00

hmmm tis few days keep playing dota n dota... donno wad to do... somebody save me pls!!!!!!!!

holidays

2005-09-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. having my holidays now already.. but here i am slacking everyday at home.. so sianz... playing game everyday and watching anime...... tot of getting a job but i tink i failed during e interview la.. lol.... now well juz see if any happenings will happen during my holiday... if not.. this shall be my most boring holidays i ever had in my life....

...:Money Money Money:...

2005-09-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

Well the exam has finally came to an end... well no meaning to talk about the results.... right now... all i want is a job... this few days been walking to various k box branch hoping to be able to get a job over there since its so relaxing listen to music and serving drinks... Buddha pls let me get my job pls... On the sake of my hardwork i put in... 7 attempts for kbox... haha... hope this time i can make it... =) and with the money i earned.. i can return all my debts to the coconut ah long... welll after went for job hunting... we went to bishan to kia kia... lol... and watch the ming xing ou xiang also.. lol overall its not bad.. but haiz... all becoz of my humji-ness and the chicken rice... i would have tried with bernie... lol... after watching dat interviewing.. we went back to tampines and rest at macdonalds... well there was one pretty gal sitting right infront of me and bernie... Woot... so chio sia... lol cant keep my eyes off her... haha but pretty only la.. dunno inside pretty anot... keke... after sitting for awhile another 2 gals came in.. all right la not so pretty but their appearance also very appealing... LOL... too bad alex and yanling still having their exams.. if not im sure that this very particular day will be special cuz we'll be celebrating alex birthday... keke... well next tym ya bro...

Love Life??
well basically.. dont tink i will commit myself into such tingy yet cuz im having some problems with myself and the ting i hate is that i don wan to see my gf sad... haha... since i already cant handle myself well now den im sure that if i have one now... she wont have any happiness... and also i feel inferior becoz of my size.. lol... i cant give them the an quan gan they want.... haha so gf? NAH!!! Lol... maybe yes if she really really really can understand me very well just like my buddies does... keke... and also i also a fucking fellow who doesnt deserve any gfs....

Studies??
FUCK OFF LA... exams over liao... knn poly is so fucking sian sian sian... the pple there... MAKES ME SICK...thou im lucky to have some nice fellows by my side... mango if u're reading this... u should know its who... LOL... anyway after this exam... those pple's amount will be cut down by half...

Friends??
well i feel better off with my secondary sch frenz... i feel safe and a sense of being recognized while being with them... haha... now's holiday period so lets just spent some time socializing 2gether and be like a bunch of crazy fools just like we used to be.. haha... thou time, schedule and place will now pose a problem to the everyone of us.. but im sure.. there will be one day.. we'll be out 2gther again... I am sure.

.:.MySelf.:.

2005-09-03T08:04:00.000-07:00

nowadays dunno y keep have the those emptiness feelings inside me sia.. just like back to the sec 4 periods... everytym gt tat irritating feelings... fook seh... holidays coming soon right after my one week exams... hmmm wonder if i should spent e time playing with my buddies first or just set myself directly into working days?? lol... 2 months man.. can do alot of tings... anyway.. maybe spend sometime with my buddies first ba... we need alot of socializing time!! lol... cuz of the different schools and different schedule we're having now.... right now.. everyone is aiming for someting.... da oldest in our gang is aiming for a gal and that also apply to the 4th oldest in our gang... for me.. i dunno wad i wan sia.. lol.. right now just living life lyk a typical teenager lo... play games, see chiobu and hanging out lo... furthermore.... nowadays im not acting like myself... feel that someting is cropping me inside but i cant explain that feeling.... anyway i just cant wait for the exam periods to end.... have alot of tings i wanna do.. lol... chiong anime chiong game and go out go out go out and work work work... lol... can someone just tell me wad to do now???

..:Confused:..

2005-08-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

Sem exams are coming and yet im still playing now... haha... study study study.... makes me sick.. however the days i having now is so boring.... everyday play game and play game... haiz... cant find any interest in doing another thing.... Is not that i dont wish to tell u how i feel but im just so dead inside of me.... if u cant understand me well enough... u will suffer when u walk with me.... how i hope that my life is filled with colours.... and for those who wants me to blog... after reading this.. i think u should know why i never blog liao rite... u dont expect me to write: okay im now sitting down playing dota and watching anime... so fun!!! yay!! after watching anime i had some food that my mom cook.. so yummy!!" kao... so boring... but thats e fact la.. thats the life im living right now... during my life in poly... classmates around me... half of them have abandon their secondary sch frenz... i was like.... hw could them... sec sch frenz are the frenz that are the longest one... if thats my life im going to have in e future.. then im going to do wadever i can to escape my fate...... thats difficult but i know i will do it for sure.....

If u cant understand me..... Then u wont be able to understand me forever....

..:Strength:..

2005-08-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

May strength bestowed upon me
During my walk towards eternity friendship
Darkness, death and despair that appear before me
Are just imbeciles that seeks death
Friendships, feelings and family
The reincarnation of thyself
And may those great strength of me
Diminish will not

Injured Soul...

2005-08-02T09:47:00.000-07:00

hmmm... im sick n tired of being in poly... everytym need to do projects and tons of lec notes need to be printed out... furthermore... there aint any pple can really make me laugh during school.... and theres one incident whereby i saw a person rather care abt studies dan friendship... lol... wad can i do sia.. heng nt my best buddy sia... anyway... i hate web design stuffs... i spend so many days doing desiging my web and teacher say it was crap... fook seh... all my hard work just suddenly disapper...wtf... anyway... im not sure how long i can last out there.... LYNN FASTER TAKE UR OLVL AND COME PEI ME.... haiz... and this few days.. there isnt any interesting tings that can be in my memories... no money no time and no energy... fuk seh... well maybe during this weekend after i gt my money... maybe ask BLAY go orchard kia kia ba... lol or bugis aso can... go chiong vodka ba... k la chaos everyone... those who reading this... UNDERSTAND IT AND U CAN JIO ME LIAO... LOL.... and one more ting.. SHORT CAN ASO HAVE GF HOR...

Injustize murdered me

2005-07-27T09:52:00.000-07:00

Haiz... despite of all the attempts i made during the trail... i still did not get chosen.. lol... got to make a comeback during the interschool basketball competition and gonna show them whats the real meaning of being a point guard... and one main thing... being short doesnt mean disadvantage.... shall prove to them this point.... i swear to the heaven and earth that i'll not throw dreamerz and number 10's face.... just wait and anticipate for my comeback.... Lol... anyway... gonna talk bout some mushy stuffs here now... Hmmm... Its been a year since i had any girlfriends... lol... I regretted on saying " poly hui gen hao".... been in poly for 1 month... still haven find one which really could be my lifetime partner... now gotta find a permenant one... not going to change anymore... may be hard to find you... but i noe that one day... i'll be holding u in my arms... and one more ting!!! short aso can give warmth hor... anyway just wait for me okay? i'll find u as soon as possible.... a promise shall always be a promise....

Poly Life:...

Hmmm what i gonna say... well... it isnt as bad as the day i stepped in this school... my impression was like omg am i going to be alone for the 3 years... lol... well now... gues that there are few not bad one in my class... anyway... theres one already-dropout and 2 planning-to-dropout in my class.... well i dont know what to say but i think that u shouldnt give up so easily.... anyways, wads decided are decided... cant change ur mind...

Buddies:...
well still like the old times... we guys are finding time just to be 2gether... sitting down and chatting abt the funny encounters in our life... thou the time when the 5 of us can be 2gether is getting lesser and lesser... but every1 of u just tri to understand someting... as long as we are connected in our hearts... no matter what... we'll just be the 5 of us... nothings gonna change.. and IF there's changes, i'll be the first one to be there to ammend it back like the old way... maybe other pple will say" hey comeon... poly friends will now replace ur secondary sch friends.." lets just promise to each other that we'll be the best of best of best buddies till the last breath we breathed.... peng shall always be the peng in all of your heartz....

Aims:...
having a new start in poly... im gonna change the way i am... no more being the lowest in class.. no more being the useless in class... for now... im not gonna returning to the path i took in my sec school.... being useless is helpless... and even u... despised on me and my looks.... wadeva it is....

InJuStiZe

2005-07-26T06:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went for the stupid bball trial and was like hell man... knn... the coach only pick those tall one... and he can bullshit saying that " what we want is pple with poly standards and advanced basic"... What the hell.... and comeon... the pple picked by him... to be honest... i can trash them hard if i wanted to... ARGH no wonder tp's basketball team was disbanded... i mean like thou there's some pros in the "picked" team... but overall.... the others are basic skill players w/o any special skills... tml's another trial... i doubt i can make it in the team... cuz with my ht... haiz.... anyway, if i dont get in tat team.. i hope i can enter into IT school team and show them whats the meaning of point guard during the interschool competition... anyways... just wanted to complain only.. haha... not trying to boast abt myself ar... but one ting i have to say is "coach... u sux big time... dont try to give fcuking craps while the pple u picked didnt reached the standard u mention..." well for now.. not sure wad i want to deal with the bball tingy.. just hope that... tml.... i'll give him the biggest shock in his life... tall doesnt mean u can control the whole match... what controls the match is skill ......

..: BaCk In AcTioN:..

2005-07-25T11:03:00.000-07:00

Woohooooo... decided to reblog again loh... keke.. hw ya guys think of my bloggy design... keke.. can gimme ur opinions at tagboard ??? haha pretty pls =)

Cursed...

2005-05-29T20:18:00.001-07:00

Hmmmm... Have not been blogging for months.. Nt i dont want to but is i dont know how.. haha... reaching up to this point... I began to feel that my world is filled with depression, failure and emotionally breakdown..... Lol... whatever i want to have, it just wont come in my direction.... how i wish i could have it... but i've no guts.. confidence... ARgh... forget bout it loh... i'll continue to be a monk for the rest of my life... =)

Cursed...

2005-05-29T20:18:00.000-07:00

Lost

2005-04-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

Suddenly felt very scared, insecure and lost... Most importantly.. confuse.. Though i've successfully forgot everything and even thou u steady wiv HIM** i was shocked only for awhile... :) think wad... cry again meh.. bo liaoz... last tym i gong n childish... now no more le... but tink over it again... if u felt sad for e things i did for u... i think it's quite worthwhile doing so much for u... One more thing.. u stead with him.. few tings need to tell u... He's boring and paranoid... Maybe he's more good looking den me... MAYBE ONLY... i changed my appearance aso.. overall ar... good luck ba... coz i dunno wad to say liao... tired sia.. always play this guess-wad-u-tinking game... AND NOW.... I SWEAR WITH ALL THE TINGS I HAVE, I WONT PUT IN ANYMORE EFFORTS!! haha.... i knew u will say i bhb one... but at least.. let me complain to u for e one last tym alright? ---- end of love topic---

---- Friends----

Guess wad? U can have ur complains... But i too could have my own complains... I was disappointed that u could gave up everything coz a fukin stupid tiny dispute... And come on la... don need to keep on complaining ur problems to HER... let me tell u.. she herself doesnt even noe wad frens are really for... To be friends and to be real friends.. U need to noe each other party's bad point and try to compromise with it.. They show their bad side to u coz they TRUST u and knw that u wont backstab them... Tink urself... A person which only know ur good side and a person which noe ur bad side.. who u will choose tell me... arent u tired keep on putting a fake self.... wad stupid shit... closest friends will always be e one who make u sad.. coz THEY ARE E ONLY BUNCH U CARE.. n dont come here to tell me how matured u are... thou i love to play... but im a guy who know how to see things well.. in fact... I GOT THE CONFIDENCE TO SAY... i understand how pple feels.. being frenz muz support each other no matter wad mistake they may make in the long run... at least we noe tat u could cover my back... if everything have a limit... how on earth are friends going to tell u wad they really wanna say, do they really wanna do...stupid rite.. limit there limit here... if i were to noe a person that will limit the tings i do... i would give a fuking damn care bout tat person... limit the tings ur fren do.. arent u a suker more den dey are... no matter wad... i've done e last ting for our friendship... choose wad u wan... one wrong path and dats it... be it or not..

---- truth and honest----

Hey brothers and sisters of 6 elementz... mind telling me private where my bad point lies... i wanna noe so i can change to be a bettter person... and aso thanx ar.. for tolerating wiv my bad points... really feel secured with u all behind me...

My En Ren

2005-02-28T05:56:00.000-08:00

2dae got my olvl results... haha... fared all right but aso quite sux.... well up to tis point, im able to regconize who are those nice to me... without dem, im not sure where i'll be now....

Mr Ang...

Thnx for being there to teach me math, your method really help alot... I'll always carry those memories wiv me till i die.... Mr Ang u're the best.... 2dae when i've gt e result... i was very relieved dat i pass my math... suddenly i felt an urge to shake ur hand and thank you 4ver... haha....

Brother...

HaHa... Thnx for ur suan-ing me at home ar... thou i didnt study for other subs... but u asked me to study for math... haha... see told u liao.. math is my main prob... at least don study still can one...

Lynn& Alex...

Thnx ar... The p.a.l really useful sia... although others disapprove of our outing studies.. but in e end, we prove it rite... haha.. both of u contributed to my math... haha... ty ty ar.... may the p.a.l live long...

Yan...

Haha... U're a good challenger to my chinese... first tym u got b3 for chi.. i was envious.. dat made me chiong for chi... in e end im on par wiv u liao... keke.. thnx ar...

Goose...

Lol... dunno wad to say... haha u didnt helped alot but u made a good fren to me... and i aso didnt helped u alot either.. haha...

Berd....

u taught me alot abt math .... haha... the methods, formulas and GURLS.... won forget abt it de.... hope we get into e same poly again loh... den start our bio cha bo again....lol...

Everyone's changing..

2005-02-21T11:40:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... went for some blog hopping session.. and read many pple stories... haha...
while reading, i understood some new lessons in my life.. many pple may write tat they wad still love their ex... but after a few weeks, wad happen? they still continue their life wiv a new love... and most shocking is tat most of dem are gurls... didnt the girls always haf a saying that.. good guys on this earth are extinct already? wad is happening now... y i seems to be struggling more den dey are... its been so many months and years... i still stay on to one love.. haha... anyway who cares... and saw another blog... abt fren betrayin fren... wtf man.... if u gt e tym to betray ur fren, y don u spend some time in becoming his better fren... good is better den bad rite.. dunno wad the hell in tis world is goin on... but wadever it is... i'll continue to wait for my new her... :p

Life....

2005-02-09T09:18:00.000-08:00

我从小就过着一个空虚的生活，没人理解我或是疼爱我，一想起来就令我心酸。但是经过了17年的孤独生活，我早就以习惯了这种简单即伤心的严续。往着窗外的茫茫然的天空，令我的生心感到所谓的宁静。有时后曾想过，我这样的往着天空也许在某个角落里也有另一个和我一样感同生受的灵魂也在以我做共同的事情。

Just one Day

2005-01-27T22:54:00.001-08:00

Although the road ahead are very tiring, i just noe tat just one day i will find my new her... Juz gimme sometime and i'll think i'll be livin in her beautiful world... May Buddha bless me.. Amitofuo~~~

.:.A New Perception.:.

2005-01-22T09:12:00.000-08:00

Life-----

Recently while i was getting some sleep, i kept on thinking abt wad death was all abt... The thought of me can no longer exist totally frightens me... No more havoc and no more viewing of the world is kinda sad.... However, i've thought abt it and realize that i'll have to be more serious in life and cherish every bits and pieces of it.. I wish to beautify my life wiv lots of good frenz and my dear family... Its kinda mushy but dat cant be helped it... For now, i've changed... After workin at DHL post, i knew a guy named jeremy and his perception in life changed my character.. He showed me that being nice and trying to helped other pple changed for the better is kinda happy and a sense of warmth.. Although i've not grab the whole idea abt death but one ting for sure.. I'll decorate my life wiv so many graceful things till the day when i die, i will live in their heart... Muahahaha...

Love----

Talkin abt this, im a total idiot in this field.. Spending 2 years of recuperation, i think dat i'm almost abt to recover frm it... Haha.. Its time for me to start on a new life and forget abt it..
Its almost lyk wadeva i do, no one appreciates and there im suffering but no one noes... Maybe others will think , "who cares?" but its true... Okay enough of it and time to BE STRONG!

Friends----

Everything starting to get better and its like we are like back in the same old times again... Chatting from afternoon until midnight in cafe cartel and unwilling to go home, dats the way of life man.... Every bits and pieces of ur life adventures may be interesting to others but u've to know how to exaggerate man.. And pple out there, pls don be ashamed of the bad tings u did in the past... As thats part of ur childhood, if we did someting different at that tym, maybe we wont be able to have a link wiv wad other pple say abt their childhood...

Sign Off---
ALIYOZ DUDE(Lex's Quote)
PeNgz....

Disappering...

2005-01-20T11:29:00.000-08:00

Just in a blink of eye, 17 years have passed... I still remember the day when i finally noe how to change my pampers by my own... I always wished to cherish the time with my family but i juz dunno how as its quite funny to give them a friendly hug... Maybe filial is wad is count.. Many things have happened though... I've found my other self but just cant be with it no matter how i tried.. Fate 70% and own determination stands only 30%... i have given my fullest determination but all it depends is on the fate part... haha... juz in a few months, fate disappoint me... Dont say i nv tried.. I've tried , just tat no one could see it... My struggle and my ache, i've experienced most of it in that few single months.. Im constantly trying to understand you more but im afraid... Just a look in her profile and wad pple wrote for her and maybe i can noe? Lol.. Its not tat easy man.. Try looking back into ur old flame's profile and see what her boyfriend wrote for her, and tell me wad u feeling now.. Isnt that easy rite.. Lol.. FORGET IT... I shall have this darkest problem keep to myself for the rest of my life although i know i will be hurt by it sooner or later... I just cant put it down... Sry for those love i've disappointed.. I was trying to use it to cover up for the wounds caused by my old flame...

Love---

I think that i dont have the courage to tell u but i'll post it on my blog and let fate decide whether u'll see it or not..

Seriously, I've already understand ur decision... But some things i have to make clear...
I tried to be with other girls becoz i thought i didnt have ur attention and i didnt contact wiv u coz i'm afraid that i will upset u thru my words.. Dats y i always nv scolded u back.... 2004 im sure u still remember when i msged u again... but after some period i stopped msging u and stopped communicating with u... Dats becoz i knew i was a nuisance to u and wads more.. Im a useless guy who sux in everything.. I didnt meant to pester u but i just couldnt help it ya.. hah.. finally let this out of my mind.. may u read this and understand.. and i guess u wont see me anymore... so tk care ya ;p

Wad Can I Say

2005-01-11T08:01:00.000-08:00

Wen a guy reali falls in love and becomesfaithful to his beloved, his change in hischaracterwill reali shock every1 around him.. His egoistheart will uncompromisingly softens when hewillingly gives his heart to the lady he falls inlovewith.. furthermore he'll be willing to sacrificeeverythin and do anythin fer his loved one.. Nomatter how egoist he may be, tears will fallfromhis cheeks wen his heart's broken.. It's noteasyto see guys who would truly cry fer their lovedones...~(( 20 signs to recognise the strong love a guyholds fer his beloved... ))1. he willingly do anythin n everythin fer hisbeloved.. with sincerity not coercion2. he constantly wans to humour his belovedandtends to be more talkative3. he tends to advise his beloved more as hetrulyloves her and wans her to be a better person4. he tries to restrict her freedom due to hisoverwhelmin jealousy5. he constantly fears losin his beloved6. he always monitors his beloved'smovementsas he feels insecure7. he hates e idea of other guys bein close tohisbeloved8. he becomes jealous and sensitive wen hisbeloved pays less attention to him9. he becomes the most hardworking person nhelp his beloved to do anythin n everythin10. he becomes restless wen his beloved'sawayfer too long11. he cares fer his beloved more than hedoeshimself12. he constantly asks if his beloved loves himashe feels his love is greater than his beloved's13. he would not be bothered wif other galswhodun hold any importance to him14. he will try to spend a lot of time wif hisbelovedeven tho he noes he'll end up waitin fer hisbeloved15. he praises his beloved in front of others16. if his beloved leaves him, he cant trust anyother gal n wishes fer his beloved to comeback tohim17. wen ther is a third party, he loses his mindandis willing to do anythin to fight fer his beloved18. he makes sure he ensures her safety at alltimes19. he is lyk a small kid who fights fer constantattention from his beloved20. he treats his beloved as his most trustedoneand willing to sacrifice all of his wealth andevenhis life fer her~it's not easy to find guys who would shed theirtears jus fer gals.. so pls treasure them...~*if u agree wif wad was written above..repost

The Change...

2005-01-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

Sittin down in the middle of the night.. now me sittin down thinkin of the matter which i had troubles in... needless to say... i guess my buddies wood noe tat... to be frank... i got the same old disappointed feeling when i knew abt the fact... maybe that person said tat i was a bastard to get on wiv her new relationship but did tat person ever noe... dat was the only way to reduce my pain... and no one could ever noe wads goin on in me.. now im all alone.. not hoping for someting neither wishin for someting juz prayin tat i could get on with my life asap... but now.. it seems i got a new target... the far east... i was hit down by the first sight of it... I nv had the feelin of warmth since the day when she was gone in my life... but strange enuf... the far east gave me everything back... but one thing for sure.. im not the best for her.. i just noe it... of all to blame is my inferior looks.. but wad matters is heart rite... however... my heart juz dont haf the strength anymore and dont haf e courage anymore longer...

Only Day...

2004-10-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

No more Liao... HeHe:P

Whole New Life

2004-10-19T20:45:00.000-07:00

Throw away my xanga n everything... Start everything new in here... maybe someday one will noe wad i m doin....